Finals
by Zeeshan
5:08 in the morning
Aisha asked, “Why do you always come back to the same topic, that’s all you talk about whenever we get into a fight.”
I said, “Well, sorry! I am just telling you the truth.”
“Well, that was my past. God, why don’t you ever try to understand me?” She sounded like she was going to cry.
“The reason I don’t is because you’re feeling low, funny thing is that the reason you’re low is because of that stupid past of yours.”
“Sean, don’t forget that my past changed me and made me like you and go out with you.”
“Why would I be related to the memories that wasted your life?”
“You’re not. The only thing that is related to you is that you changed me. It’s like you got me my soul back.”
“Aisha, please don’t try to fool me. You know what I am thinking about is true, and it’s just that you don’t want to accept it.”
“Sean, you just ruined my morning, do you want to ruin my day too?” She said that to me like I was nothing in front of her, like I was a stranger to her.
“OH MY GOD! WOW the whole blame is on me now.”
“You know what Sean, I just don’t wanna talk to you right now,” Aisha hang up the phone, I called her thousands of times, but I guess she was really mad.
I said, “Oh crap, what time is it?” It was around 6:45 am; I got up from my bed, took a shower and just got dressed. I went to my living room got my vocab book, I was reading the words but my mind was wandering somewhere else, I was trying to think what is it that isn’t letting me focus. I packed up and wore my shoes.
Mom asked, “What happened? You look really upset. Is everything okay?”
I said, “Yeah, mom, just tired and scared about my finals.”
Mom said, “OK, take care and good luck.”
I got on the bus. I started to think about the fight between me and Aisha. I kind of realized that it was my mistake; I did take her past a little too far. I was feeling really bad; I called her a lot of times but got no replies. I got to school, went inside my class. The exam was right in front of me, I felt like whatever I studied was washed out from my brain, the only thing that was in my head was me bringing Aisha’s ex-boyfriend up. The thing about me is that I made a big deal about something that didn’t matter a lot in anyone’s life now.
I texted Aisha saying, “I am sorry; I know I went a little too far, can you please talk to me?”
After 20 minutes, she called me saying, “Why do you always do that?”
I said, “Because I don’t like it when you’re low.”
“I know you don’t, but don’t you think, I get more upset when we get into fights?”
I had nothing to say, “Sorry, why did you get low though?”
“Cause I was thinking why did Bob do that to me? I was just a little girl; he messed around with my feelings.”
I said, “Well, that’s why I told you to just throw those memories out from your head.”
“I am trying, it’s happening slowly.”
“Well, Aisha let’s forget everything now, and now just start new, just think like this morning never came. Okay?”
“Yes sir, I am sorry I didn’t talk to you about it and I hung up.”
“No biggy and I am sorry too.”
“About?”
“Because I made a big deal out of the topic.”
“Oh, no biggy.”
“Aisha, I will talk to you later I have an exam next period.”
“Me too.”
“Ah! Aisha I don’t like it when you’re sad, OK?”
“OK, take care and do good on your exam.”
“You too.”
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